What if you were my student?

  Zhao Shuiguan finally decided to listen to Tan Shufang's words and focus on the present task at hand, as rushing would be of no use.

  The moment of the college entrance examination has really arrived.

  The night before the exam, Zhao Shuiguan went to bed especially early and woke up feeling refreshed. His mother insisted on sending him off, but he wanted to say no. In the end, he obediently followed his mother into the car, which made him feel uneasy instead of calm.

  The closer I get to the examination room, the more nervous I become.

  The examination room was not in the No. 10 Middle School, but it was also not far from Zhao Shuiguan's home. When Zhao Shuiguan got off the car, he saw a familiar BMW 530LI. The person was leaning against the side of the car with ease, wearing a light gray woolen sweater with a V-neck and buttons, his hands in charcoal gray cotton pants, standing in the morning light, clear and beautiful, instantly becoming a picture of elegance.

  Almost all the students in this examination room were from No. 10 Middle School, and they all stopped to chat with Zhao's mother about books and ink. Zhao's mother said: "Isn't that your teacher? Go say hello, Teacher is very responsible, and also came to send you off for the exam."

  Zhao Shuiguang thought that Tan Shumeng must have taken the wrong medicine today, and actually ran to the examination room. He was muttering in his heart, but still went forward with a hard scalp. After last time, Tan Shumeng still treated Zhao Shuiguang like an ordinary student, but Zhao Shuiguang was indeed a bit inferior in terms of moral integrity, and always felt a little awkward.

  "She said softly, 'Talk about good teachers.'"

  He turned around and saw Zhao Shui Guang standing in front of him, backlit, with a hint of nervousness in his eyes, looking slightly amusing. He had thought this kid wouldn't get tense after all.

  He smiled and wanted to reach out and rub her short and curly hair, but only said: "Zhao Shuiguan, come in."

  In those glimmering eyes, however, there seemed to be a faint, flowing light.

  Nothing more needed to be said, just this one sentence, and Zhao Shuiguan's heart seemed to have gained a huge sense of stability.

  "Good morning, Teacher Tan." A girl from the neighboring class stopped and shouted. Tan Shu Mo withdrew his gaze, smiled faintly, and said to the girl: "Good morning, good luck."

  After the meeting, I got into the car and left.

  Looking at the girl fading away in the rearview mirror, he didn't say "hang in there" to her. For a child who has always been working hard, it's not necessary to say "hang in there". He understood that she had already put too much pressure on herself, and this kind of child is the one who least needs to be told to "hang in there".

  The weather during the three days of the college entrance examination was cool in the morning, hot at noon and stifling at night.

  The last day, with a ring, everything has come to an end, and everything has just begun.

  Zhao Shuiguang slowly tidied up his schoolbag, and suddenly felt a little lost.

  The students next to me were also shouting loudly, the whole campus was filled with a boiling atmosphere. Walking out of the classroom and looking up at the empty sky, for a moment, there was a stifling feeling, people didn't know what to do, but their whole body felt hot.

  Gao Yan came over and pushed Zhao Shui Guang, saying: "What are you thinking about? Where are you going?"

  Zhao Shuiguang said: "I don't know, how about you?"

  "Alas, I think I won't burn the books after all. Selling them would be better, at least I can get some money."

  Zhao Shuiguang recalled that when they were reviewing, they were facing the books piled high on the table and discussing how to deal with them in the future. Some people said: burn them all with a fire, some people said: keep them well, and one day tell their children: look, your father was so serious back then. Some people even said: it's better to drag a cart and throw them all into the river. The things they hated at that time had now become faintly nostalgic.

  This year, our youth is still not faded.

  When taking an exam, I always think about how to have fun after finishing the exam, but after finishing the exam, I really don't know what to do for fun, and whatever I do feels dull and uninteresting.

  After a few days, I had to return to school for the graduation ceremony and to collect my diploma. When Zhao Shuiguan arrived at school, he was shocked. Hey, there were so many unfamiliar faces among his classmates, but upon closer inspection, they all seemed familiar. It turned out that some of the girls had either gotten their hair straightened or permed after the exams, and everyone looked like they had grown up. But in reality, they were still the same group of kids, and as soon as they saw each other, they quickly fell into their old playful ways.

  "Alright, alright, everyone go to the auditorium for a meeting." Wang Lilili said, after being the class teacher for a year, Cao's heart was tired and her face also showed signs of aging. She felt reluctant to part with these children, after all, she had invested so much in them.

  As usual, the principal spoke first and went on stage with a big belly.

  The teacher representative spoke, I don't know if the school was afraid of talking about books and ink, so they arranged for a small old man who taught physics to go up and speak. A teacher who was talking about circular motion while his saliva was also doing circular motion scanning, the small old man smiled, with wrinkles on his face, holding the microphone, a bit nervous.

  "Friends, congratulations to you, your life is moving forward at an accelerating pace."

  Such a physically funny sentence made all the students in the classroom burst out laughing.

  Gao Yan turned his head and winked at Zhao Shuiguan, saying: "Chen Siyang is not here."

  Chen Siyang is the proud student of the old man, who often says: "The top score in Class 3 is Chen Siyang again", "This question was solved by Chen Siyang from Class 3 in less than five minutes"

  This old man is convinced that Chen Siyang is now racing with antelopes on the African savannah.

  The old man rubbed his hands and pulled out a crumpled piece of paper from his pocket.

  Those who study science are really strict and have already written a speech draft.

  Old man, coughing, said: "Fellow students, congratulations to you, standing at this important turning point in life, the future will be yours. The teacher now only wants to say that no matter what kind of person you become in the future, whether your wishes are fulfilled or not, maybe some of you will live a rich life, and some will live a very poor life, the teacher won't get angry. I hope you remember that no matter how your future life is, you must be someone who likes yourself, doesn't deceive others, doesn't muddle through life, sticks to your own beliefs, and also hopes that you can all take today's passion and move forward with big strides. The teacher believes you can do it."

  The old man smiled apologetically, and the wrinkles that had been etched by the years blossomed into beautiful flowers.

  Under the stage, applause filled the air.

  Gao Yan said in a low voice: "This old man must have been stimulated by Chen Siyang's departure." As he spoke, his palm had already slapped him red.

  Zhao Shuiguan suddenly thought, it's great, I've met so many good teachers. For the teachers, they may not even be able to count how many students they have had in their lifetime.

  For students, there is only one such teacher in a lifetime. She suddenly wanted to know why Tan Shu Mo wanted to be a teacher.

  When the old man was about to leave, he thought of something and said: "After graduation, everyone often comes back to school to take a look. The teachers are getting older and their memories are not good. If they can't remember your names, please don't mind reminding them. This will always be your alma mater."

  Zhao Shuiguang's eyes turned red, and the sadness in his heart inexplicably wanted to burst out.

  Human memories are like grapes, hanging in clusters, crystal clear. Suddenly, one drops down with a "plop", catching you off guard!

  For the first time she realized that she really had to leave. Although three years ago, she didn't enter this school with a hopeful heart, now it was filled with her memories of three years. The auditorium where they held weekly morning meetings, the lawn where she secretly took naps, the corridors of the classrooms... Who was it that called out to someone at the foot of the stairs? Who yelled "You haven't cleaned up yet and you're running off!"? Who patted her on the back saying "Let's walk home together after school"? And who kissed whom in the sunset.

  Zhao Shuiguang was immersed in such thoughts until the meeting was over, and as the crowd surged out, he saw Tan Shumeng still standing at the entrance of the auditorium. Although there were other teachers lined up, his tall and upright figure stood out clearly in the flow of time.

  When the students left, they all stopped and chatted with their familiar teachers. The surroundings of Mr. Zhou were also full of students. This person is strange, can't be said to be a very responsible teacher, nor is he particularly fond of his students. He has always been doing what he should do without fail, but never does anything unnecessary, yet everyone likes him.

  Zhao Shuiguang and Gao Qian, Mini, chatted casually, but their eyes were on the people around Tan Shu Mu. There were fewer people now. Zhao Shuiguang said: "Should we say hello to Teacher Tan?"

  Gao Yan was unable to find what he was looking for, so he dragged them along and ran away. He ran until he reached Tan Shu Mo's place and shouted loudly in front of him: "Teacher Tan!"

  Zhao Shuiguang suddenly burst out laughing, remembering the first time Tan Shumeng entered the classroom and was greeted by Gao Qian's loud "Big Brother".

  He turned around with a smile and said: "Congratulations on your graduation."

  Minnie said: "Thank you, Teacher Tan." Gao Lianhua gazed foolishly at Tan Shu Mo, feeling that this man's smile made life instantly beautiful.

  Tan Shu Mo stretched out his hand and Gao Qian hastily grasped it, then nervously let go after a while. Minnie also blushed and stretched out her hand, shaking hands with him briefly.

  It's unthinkable to even imagine shaking hands with such a beautiful man like Tan Shu who I would never meet again in this life.

  Talk about the book ink, one by one passed over, sideways, to Zhao Shuiguan stretched out slender hands, hooked up good-looking lip line, said: "Now, it's your turn." Sensual voice revealed a few shares of charm.

  Zhao Shuiguang stared at him blankly, such a proud man, condescending to shake hands with a little girl, all for her sake, what virtue did she Zhao Shuiguang have.

  She stretched out her hand and grasped it, with warm and moist fingers, neither sticky nor greasy, without any trace of sweat, firmly as if holding onto her heart.

  Zhao Shuiguan knew that this handshake would be a lifelong farewell. Such a man had taught her too many precious things, and even pulled her out of the sea of despair.

  The noisy hall seemed to have only the two of them, gazing deeply at each other.

  They let go of the book and ink, others didn't know that it was just a short moment, but they had already passed through several lifetimes, gasping for breath, with thousands of thoughts turning in their minds.

  Tan Shu Mo said in a low voice: "Congratulations on your graduation, Miss Zhao Shui Guang." The gentle pampering in his eyes melted the cold and condensed eyebrows.

  Zhao Shuiguang retracted his infatuated gaze and said seriously: "Teacher Tan, I want to attend a good university, I want to understand this world, I want to deeply love."

  All of this was taught to her by him, and she would never forget it in this life. Zhao Shui Guang thought that as for the kindness of Tan Shu Mo, she had no way to repay it, and could only not disappoint his expectations, walking forward with a straight back, perhaps this was also what he had hoped for.

  Tan Shu Mo tilted his head to look at the girl standing in front of him. It had been a year, and her hair was still short, but her eyebrows and eyes were already firm and determined. At first, he thought she was just an inexperienced child, but as he got to know her better, he discovered her contradictions - from being good at hiding herself to now daring to think and act. When did that tender bud burst forth into such a beautiful flower? Tan Shu Mo thought to himself, facing this new version of her, he seemed to have nothing more to say, feeling as though he was surrounded by the fragrance of flowers.

  Tan Shu Mo slowly put his hand back into his pocket, turned around, and walked away, waving his hand without looking back, disappearing in the thin light of dusk.

  Facing her like this, he was really conflicted - could he reach out and take the hand of a girl who yearned for the future so much, when her life was just about to begin?

  So let's not meet again, I'm unable to bear meeting you again if your life no longer has me in it, it's better that we don't meet.

  Tan Shu Mo suddenly felt that when you truly love someone, no matter how much you give to her, it's always not enough. You even want to spend a lifetime being good to her. He sat in the car, opened the window, stretched out his hand to block the azure sky, and laughed at himself, saying softly: "Hey Tan Shu Mo, I really didn't know that you could also be such a selfless person." He started the car and drove away resolutely.

  Zhao Shuiguang stood in the hall, looking at the hand that still had a lingering warmth, grasping and releasing it repeatedly. He thought of what she had said: "Meeting him to talk about books and ink was Zhao Shuiguang's greatest fortune in her lifetime", after which there would be no more!

  Some people, from this farewell, have been a lifetime apart.