Come over here and kill me

  That day, Gu Xiao Bei escorted me to the entrance, smiling and stroking my hair. He said that in the future, you will definitely quarrel with your new boyfriend three times a day, just like eating meals. Who can tolerate your temper except me? At that time, looking at Gu Xiao Bei's expression, I felt as if my heart was being cut by a knife. If he had said "don't break up" or even just "do you want to reconsider", I would have thrown myself into his arms and said no to breaking up. But Gu Xiao Bei listened to me too well, even when deleting computer files, it asks for confirmation Yes/No, but he directly executed my words.

  Actually, I was very clear that if Gu Xiao Bei had asked me to marry him at the time, I wouldn't have said a second word and would have gone with him to the civil affairs bureau, only afraid that we weren't old enough.

  It turned out that Gu Xiao Bei asked me for help not for his own sake, but for Yao Shan Shan's. He said Yao Shan Shan wanted to publish a book and asked me to contact the editors of the publishing house I knew. I stared at Gu Xiao Bei for a long time without speaking, and Yao Shan Shan was also staring at me from the side, her expression not like asking for help, but rather like a boss ordering his secretary to file documents.

  It's okay with me, no problem.

  Yao Sansan said in a very calm tone, as if she didn't believe me at all, "I didn't think you'd actually help out. I really misjudged you."

  I know she's over there cursing me, but I don't want to bother with her. Firstly, I'm too tired, and secondly, seeing Gu Xiao Bei wholeheartedly devoted to her makes my heart ache a little.

  I didn't say anything and took out my phone to dial the number of the editor who was closest to me. The call connected, I said, "Editor Liu, it's me, I'm bothering you with something."

  Lin Lan, my great writer, you have something to say just go ahead.

  I have a sister who wants to publish a book, can you help me make it happen? She's my own sister.

  I hung up the phone and didn't even look at Yao Shanshan, closing my eyes to continue sleeping. But I knew her face looked terrible. With my eyes closed, I still saw Gu Xiaobei's face, his sorrow rippling like water. It made me feel especially sad. I remembered that in the past, Gu Xiaobei always had a smile on his face when he was in front of me, shining brightly like a flower.

  That day was about to end when Xiaoman sang a song, "Are You My Happiness?", which made me feel particularly sentimental. She sang while looking at Baisong, who responded to every line with a "yes". I must have been exhausted and my nerves were frayed, memories kept flooding back, and all the good things Baisong had done for me in the past came rushing back.

  When Baisong was pursuing me, he knew that my boyfriend was Gu Xiaobei, but he still treated me well. Every day, he would call to remind me to eat, and drive me wherever I needed to go. Sometimes, he would even send me and Wenjing to watch movies together. Wenjing wouldn't let him in, saying it wasn't right for a big man like him to watch movies with two women, so he would wait outside the cinema, often falling asleep on the steering wheel.

  I felt especially heartbroken when I saw him sleeping soundly. I didn't want to answer his calls, pretending that my phone was out of money, and then I would suddenly find hundreds of yuan in my phone bill. When I had a cold and was bedridden, he bought me medicine and supplements, sneaking into the girls' dormitory at night. But when he saw Gu Xiaobei sitting on my bed, he quietly left without saying a word.

  Baisong was the most arrogant person in our class, always bossing people around, but he never spoke harshly to me or got angry with me. His eyes were full of tenderness and affection, just like Gu Xiaobei's. Baisong wasn't any less handsome than Gu Xiaobei, with his inverted triangle physique and long legs. Many girls would die for him, but he only treated me well.

  Who doesn't have a soft spot in their heart? Many times when Gu Xiaobei wasn't paying attention, I would secretly cry because I felt like I was being cruel to Baisong. Even then, I thought that if I hadn't met Gu Xiaobei first, I would definitely be Baisong's girlfriend.

  It was last Christmas when Baisong asked me out for the last time. That time, I finally told him the truth, because I couldn't bear to see him continue to waste his feelings on me. If others didn't kill me, I would have killed myself. That day, I told Baisong that "we absolutely cannot be together", emphasizing the word "absolutely" like I was facing an enemy.

  Baisong was very sad that day, and I could see it in his eyes. He asked me, Lin Lan, if there was no Gu Xiaobei, would he have a chance to take care of me for the rest of my life? My heart felt a pang of regret and despair. I nodded, and Baisong's tears started flowing. He said he understood, and that it was fate.

  When he left, he asked if he could hug me once. At that moment, my revolutionary spirit wasn't strong enough, and I let him hold me. That one hug caused a big mess. Because when I leaned on his shoulder, I saw Gu Xiaobei standing behind Baisong, another little white rabbit.

  At that moment, I just wanted someone to come and kill me, as long as they didn't hit my face.