Rebirth of a Fat Girl's Youth Diary

  Struggling in the sea of questions for a while, Gu Xiang came back to himself when it was already late August. There was only one week left before school started.

  She had promised her father that she would go and stay there for two days, after telling Gu Xiang and Gu's mother, she packed her clothes.

  After Dad Gu received the phone call, he drove over in the afternoon.

  Father Gu bought a black Santana, which was already considered a good car at that time.

  Gu Xiang sat in her car and carefully sized him up for a while.

  Father Gu looks much taller and thinner than I remembered him.

  "Gu's father made an effort to find a topic with her: 'Ya Ya, school is about to start. Are you nervous?'"

  His tone was like a kid who had just started kindergarten, which made Gu Xiang feel a bit awkward. However, he still managed to keep the conversation going: "Don't be nervous."

  "Dad asked again: 'Have you finished your homework?'"

  "I've finished writing."

  "Yaya is so great! How about Daddy gives you a little reward?"

  Gu Xiang: ……

  Then Mr. Gu drove the car into the largest mobile company in their county.

  At that time when mobile phones were not popular and most parents used green screen phones, Gu's father was very generous and let Gu Xiang choose freely.

  Gu Xiangxin said there's nothing to pick on now, and the entertainment function of mobile phones is completely incomparable with those in the past.

  Just as she was staring blankly at the counter, the salesgirl came over.

  "What can I get for you?"

  "Dad said: 'I want to buy a mobile phone for my daughter.'"

  "What kind of phone function do you need to focus on?"

  Mr. Gu looked at Gu Xiang with inquiring eyes, and Gu Xiang said: "As long as you can make phone calls and send text messages."

  The shopping guide recommended a few relatively cheaper flatbed scanners for them.

  Father Guo looked at them with some dissatisfaction: "These black ones don't look good, and they're not suitable for a young girl. There's a young girl in our factory who bought a Nokia, it's red and has a sliding cover, do you have one like that here?"

  The salesperson became even more enthusiastic: "We just got a new model in, Nokia's music phone, especially suitable for girls." And then took one out to show them.

  Mr. Gu looked at him and thought he was quite good, so he asked about Gu Xiang's situation.

  Gu Xiang looked at this thick mobile phone cover and said it was unnecessary.

  The customer's father said "Then we'll take this one." The salesperson happily went to ring up the sale.

  Gu Xiang casually glanced at the price, over 2,000. Equivalent to later "Love is crazy".

  So it turns out that my childhood life was so luxurious?!

  The mobile phone company also rented out a counter to someone else to sell electronic products.

  When Mr. Gu went to the counter to pay, Gu Xiang happened to be standing beside the counter and took a casual glance.

  The boss seemed to be a little girl and didn't pay attention to her.

  After Gu's dad paid the bill and came over, Gu Xiang was still staring at a portable CD player. She didn't have such things when she was young. She always thought buying CDs to listen to music was quite petty bourgeoisie.

  "Yaya, do you have someone you like?"

  The boss immediately came over with alacrity.

  Not to mention, Gu Xiang also thought that her father carrying a black leather bag looked quite like a nouveau riche.

  The boss recommended a pink Sony portable CD player for them. It was the one that Gu Xiang had been staring at just now.

  That portable music player is silver and very thin, it really looks like something a young girl would like.

  Gu Xiang hadn't spoken yet, but Father Gu said: "It's pretty good, later when you're tired from studying, you can relax a bit."

  Looked at the price again, it's over 1,000, ran to 2,000.

  Now their average salary here is only 1,500 yuan.

  Gu Xiang suddenly felt a bit dizzy and hesitated. Now one CD also costs twenty or thirty yuan. In the future, buying CDs will cost a lot of money.

  Seeing her hesitation, the boss said generously: "Now that school has started, we're having a sale here too. If you really want it, I'll give you a 10% discount and throw in a few genuine CDs." He took out a paper box with a pile of CDs inside.

  Gu Xiang's heart was even more excited, these CDs were leftovers for sale, but judging from the packaging, they should be genuine.

  She also spotted that some of them were special editions, which later became a collecting craze online and these CDs were unbuyable even with money.

  Her father saw her like this and said to the boss, "These CDs of yours are all from previous years. My daughter doesn't listen to these old songs."

  The boss said: "Where can I? You see here are Jay Chou, JJ Lin's, but they are all popular now. Okay, let me give you a few more new ones to choose from."

  The boss took out a few more CDs from underground, and Dad took them in one hand, put them into the paper box for holding CDs, and said: "Got it, just these. We don't want you to give us a discount either. We'll take this portable CD player."

  The boss is also a straightforward person and agreed directly.

  These CDs are expensive when added up, but for him, if they can't be sold, they're worthless.

  In less than an hour, Gu Xiang received a mobile phone, a CD player and a box of CDs.

  What's with this heavy sense of guilt... Dad, what are you doing?!

  Grandpa and grandma have been waiting at home for a long time.

  Grandfathers have always been quite dignified, and younger grandfathers are even more so.

  Looking at her stern face, Gu Xiang still had some fear of her.

  Grandma was a short and plump little old lady, Gu Xiang had been quite close to her since childhood.

  They had two children. The elder son settled down elsewhere and only Gu Baba was left by his side, and Gu Baba only had one child, Gu Xiang.

  It's obvious that both elderly people dote on Gu Xiang a lot.

  Gu Xiang entered the house and sweetly called out to someone. Her grandfather, not saying a word, nodded at her with a hint of a smile on his face, the corners of his mouth visibly raised.

  Grandma pulled Gu Xiang to one side and asked her in a low voice.

  Gu Xianghuan looked around for a week and didn't see Gu Daddy's current wife.

  "Grandma said: 'She's back in the countryside now, and she specifically asked you to come over at this time. Isn't that convenient? It's just our own family having dinner.'"

  Lunch was cooked by grandma. The dishes were very good, scallion exploding yellow eel, braised abalone, wood ear old duck soup and fragrant mushroom green vegetables.

  Almost ate off Gu Xiang's tongue.

  Grandma's cooking is also super delicious, what to do!

  Gu Xiang finished a big bowl of rice, although he was already 70-80% full, but Gu Xiang looked at those dishes and felt it was such a pity...

  Especially that yellow croaker, it doesn't smell fishy at all, and it's extremely fresh.

  Grandma looked at her and asked: "Ya Ya, want another bowl?"

  Gu Xiang was still hesitant, and as August arrived, the weather wasn't so hot anymore. She had been puzzled by her recent increase in appetite.

  Grandma's rice bowls are particularly large, and Dad also eats a bowl of rice now.

  She eats more than young men at this rate.

  After eating a few more bites of food in doubt, Gu Xiang reluctantly put down her chopsticks.

  She knew she would get sleepy after eating her fill, so she stood with her back against the wall and on tiptoes.

  Grandma washed an apple for her and laughed at her like this: "Ya Ya, what are you doing?"

  "I'm on a diet. I think I've gotten too fat."

  "Where did you get fat? Girls should be plump and look good! You're still young, it'll be better when you grow up."

  Gu Xiang: I'm already 13, and you're still going to spank me... Grandma, you're talking nonsense with your eyes wide open.

  Gu's father had his own small glazed tile factory and today he didn't go to work especially for Gu Xiang.

  In the afternoon, both father and daughter were relatively free.

  Mr. Gu asked Gu Xiang if he had learned how to ride a bicycle.

  Gu Xiang said she would. In fact, she wasn't sure if she could ride a bicycle now, but in her past life, she was indeed able to.

  Gu's father picked up his black wallet and tucked it into his armpit.

  "Dad, what are you doing?"

  Dad stood up and headed for the door: "I'll take you to buy a bicycle."

  "I don't want it, I have nowhere to ride it now. When I enter junior high school, my mom will definitely take me there."

  Dad still insisted: "First, let's buy one for you. There will be a time when you can ride it. I saw your Uncle Wang buying his daughter a Giant pink bicycle, which looks especially good. Dad will also buy one for you."

  "I really don't want to! My mom will definitely worry about me riding alone on the road."

  Gu Xiang insisted on it, so Father Gu gave up.

  But Gu Xiang felt like she was being overly sensitive, why did she feel that Father Gu seemed a bit unhappy instead...

  After some thought, she understood too.

  Gu's father felt guilty and wanted to make it up to her as much as possible.

  However, Gu Xiang felt that although he did earn a lot, money wasn't meant to be spent this way.

  As a daughter, she can accept his gifts. When he gets old, she will also give back to him. However, the human heart is made of flesh after all, and some things cannot be filled with material goods.

  Human emotions cannot be replaced by material things.

  She and Gu's father were not close, just not close.

  After Father Gu made a fortune in business in his early years, he had someone outside and dispersed this family.

  From the moment she could tell right from wrong, she had harbored resentment towards him.

  Even if in his previous life, after Gu's mother passed away, Gu's father had a late son, but suddenly his business failed.

  She dropped out of school and worked multiple jobs to support her family, traveling all over for their livelihood.

  But only Gu Xiang himself knew that his feelings in his heart couldn't be deceived. These were just out of responsibility, not willingly.

  Of course, living together for several years later, it's impossible to say there were no feelings.

  It was just later that Father Gu became a drunkard and gambled. The small inheritance from Grandpa and Grandma was all squandered by him.

  Gu Xiang's younger brother has just started kindergarten and there is no one to take care of him, so he can only give a few hundred yuan to the neighbor's aunt every month.

  What made Gu Xiang most sad was when she first entered the modeling circle and went to a foreign place for three months to walk the show.

  In the past three months, because she worked for free, she took on any job and was bullied by other cliques of veteran models. She was locked out of her room at midnight, her boxed meals were often missing, and even the clothes she wore to walk the show would be torn apart...

  At the most critical moment, she stood in the corridor with an empty stomach, shivering and reciting repeatedly: Heaven will entrust a great responsibility to this person also, must first make his heart and will suffer, labor his muscles and bones, starve his body, exhaust his body, disrupt his actions, so as to move his heart and endure his nature, once again benefit what he cannot...Heaven will entrust a great responsibility to four also...

  Tears fell without realizing it.

  She was only 18 or 19 years old at that time.

  When she came back, she had lost even more weight.

  But what he can't bear more is that her father doesn't care about his son when she's not around.

  The neighbor's wife happened to be ill, so she sent her brother back.

  That child has also lost a lot of weight, and neighbors all say they often hear the child crying.

  Father Gu doesn't cook, he wakes up and goes to the mahjong hall to play mahjong, when he's hungry he just eats something casual at the mahjong hall, and gets drunk at night.

  My little brother was only five years old, when he got hungry, he would go to the neighbor's house with tears in his eyes and knock on the door. The neighbors took pity on him and also gave him some food to eat.

  Gu Xiang saw that his brother's arm still had burn marks from cigarette butts, and heard him say that it was midnight when their father got drunk, finished smoking and casually threw the cigarette butt on him...

  Gu Xiang couldn't bear it anymore and for the first time, she scolded her father severely.

  She said: "If you can't treat him well?! Why give birth to a son! Even raising a cat or dog, you have to take responsibility for the pet's whole life!"

  Father Gu hehe smiled twice, belched, and said vaguely: "Of course we want to have a son! Hehe, having a daughter is cutting off the incense fire, it's...it's a money-losing goods..."

  Have you ever had that feeling?

  You try extremely hard to be good to some people. You've been wronged, you say it's nothing. You're heartbroken and sad, but you force yourself to cheer up. You can't fall down because there are still people behind you who need your protection.

  In his eyes, you are nothing at all.

  This is the most ridiculous joke under heaven.

  Her family owed so much debt, she didn't attend college, had no decent job, no friends, and even no family members who cared about her.

  She was standing by the window at that time. She still remembered that day's weather was very good and the sky was blue.

  She almost jumped down with one ruthless heart.

  Perhaps for someone's heart to turn cold is just a matter of an instant.

  This life, she will not let her mother be taken away by illness.

  She will also try her best to help Gu Dad avoid those frustrations. This is the reason she continues to interact with Gu Dad.

  But she really can't do more than that.