Life is like an ongoing TV series

  Life is sliding in a simpler and clearer direction, I am still a happy young man, occasionally having a dream of holding a washbasin to receive money. The only thing that makes me feel unstable in life is Lu Xu.

  The last time he told me he liked me at my house, I didn't react at all and just lay in bed pretending to be dead. But actually, my heart was racing like a drum. However, after that, Lu Xu never mentioned it again, and I suspected if it was just a dream. But later it proved not to be, because Lu Xu asked out his gentle and emotional girlfriend to break up with her, saying he had someone he liked, which is me. He said he couldn't cheat on her anymore, since his heart didn't like her anymore, he had to tell her the truth. I said I'm not even your girlfriend, Lu Xu said, even if you don't want to be with me, I still need to break up with her, because my heart has already betrayed her, and I couldn't cheat on her. He spoke very seriously, like a dialogue from a Qiong Yao novel.

  That day, Lu Xu called me to go to a cafe and wait for him. He said he wanted to break up with his girlfriend and asked me to be there with him. I thought to myself, what does this have to do with me? Why do I need to show my face? Aren't third parties in TV dramas always hidden figures?

  Lu Xue arrived and sat across from me, asking me to wait a moment as his girlfriend would be arriving soon. I was dressed quite formally that day because I had heard that his girlfriend was an especially gentle, quiet, and kind-hearted woman. I couldn't very well go meet her looking like a female monkey, after all.

  Just as I was drinking coffee, I looked up and saw Wen Jing walk in. I was about to greet her when I saw her ridiculous outfit and burst out laughing like a frog.

  But in just three seconds, I couldn't laugh anymore, and I was about to cry. Wen Jing was the same, because Lu Xu shouted at her, "Wen Jing, over here!"

  That day, Lu Xu slowly told Wen Jing about the breakup. I was standing next to them and wished someone would come over and kill me, or at least slap me in the face. If I had known that Lu Xu's girlfriend was Wen Jing, I would rather be hacked to death than try to flirt with Lu Xu. I saw Wen Jing sitting across from me, not saying a word, and my heart felt like it was being clawed at. I wanted to reach out and grab Wen Jing's hand, but she quickly pulled it back onto the table.

  That day I didn't even know how it ended, only remembered that Lu Xu was talking non-stop over there, and Wen Jing and I were both harboring ulterior motives.

  I think this life is as stupid as a soap opera.

  The next day, Wen Jing ran to the bottom of my building to find me. I quickly ran downstairs and stood in front of her. At 1.72 meters tall, I towered over her, who was only about 1.27 meters tall. Seeing that neither of us was speaking, I decided to break the silence with a sentence: "Wen Jing, I'm sorry..." But before I could finish, Wen Jing jumped up and slapped me on the ear with a loud smack. It looked like it hurt, but in reality, it didn't hurt at all - just like when I hit Gu Xiao Bei. She couldn't bear to hit me hard, just like how I couldn't bear to hit Gu Xiao Bei hard either. Tears immediately welled up in my eyes; I would have rather had Wen Jing scold me, really scold me.

  She turned around and left, saying something that made me feel extremely hurt before she walked away. She said, "You've always liked to compete with me for things since we were young, I let you every time, this time I'll let you too."

  From that day on, I stayed at home and Wen Jing never came to see me. Instead, Gu Xiao Bei came over. I cried heavily on his shoulder, with tears and snot all over him. The smell of his body felt like it was from a past life. Suddenly, I remembered that Yao Shan Shan always leaned on this shoulder, and I immediately felt nauseous. I pushed him away and said "get out". Gu Xiao Bei looked at me with red eyes and said "Lin Lan, don't be like this". It seemed like he only knew how to say this one sentence. I said, "what's it to you? I'll do what I want, if you don't like it then get out! Who wants you here pretending to be kind?" Gu Xiao Bei turned around and left my room, gently closing the door behind him. I grabbed the bowl from my bedside table and threw it at the door, watching as it shattered into pieces. I didn't even feel a pang of heartache, considering how I had just blown up at Wei Wei over this very same bowl not long ago.

  I've been lying in bed all the time, and I don't dare to go to the company. I always feel that I owe an apology to Wenjing, and it feels like summer is as cold as winter. At first, Lu Xu would call me every day from downstairs, and I told my mom that if she dared to let him in, I would die in front of her. The last time, I rushed to the balcony and scolded loudly, and while scolding, I started crying. Lu Xu heard me crying from below and panicked, saying "Lin Lan, don't be like this." I sneered coldly in my heart, thinking who only knows how to say this one sentence nowadays. I waved my hand and said "go away", speaking so lightly that even I could barely hear myself, but with that one wave of my hand, a pot of flowers was knocked down by me.